“Believing in even the possibility of a happy ending is a powerful thing, but living with that kind of belief… that’s the most powerful thing of all. That’s hope!”
Snow, Once Upon a Time
Here’s to new beginnings, radical self love, and no longer being ashamed that I love with great depth and much intensity.
Unashamed
I am no longer ashamed of loving people deeply and completely. It’s a beautiful thing to love people whole heartedly, despite being heartbroken time after time. It’s a strength. It is my gift.
It’s ok that I give my love to people that aren’t capable of loving me with the same intensity. The goal is to leave people better than when you met them.
When I love, it pours out of me with every fiber of my being. And I’m done trying to dilute my love for those that can’t hold me.
Humbly, you can choke beloved.
I’m learning to be more selective, remembering that it isn’t sustainable to abandon myself, my values, and my desires for any relationship.
Looking ahead towards the future, I’m hopeful. If my past lovers aren’t it, I know that what God has is only better. And with this hope, people’s departures no longer feel like funerals. I’m rejoicing because the best is yet to come.
I’m going to find that love one day.
Actually, it’ll find me. Right where I am. As I am. Who I am now is enough and deserving of the best God has to offer me.
Growth
I know you haven’t heard this much, but I am so proud of you.
Your growth; your journey. Just look at how far you’ve come. You’ve accomplished so much and still have more to accomplish. With each step, each decision you get wiser and wiser. Don’t get so caught up in your healing journey that you don’t give yourself grace and acknowledge what you’ve learned thus far. Who you are now is what you once prayed for!
I Choose Me
I’m getting to that point in my life where sacrificing the integrity of who I am is a price I’m no longer willing to pay. I’m done abandoning myself for the sake of mediocre trauma bonds disguised as love. If your love doesnt radiate and remind me of God’s love, keep it. I’m good on that love, enjoy.
And if I have to lose parts of me to have you, I choose me. Every. Single. Time.
Used to…
I used to be appeased by half lit flames and the crumbs you’d leave for me.
I used to thrive off of meaningless emojis and good morning texts.
I used to think Love was changing for the other person, when in reality it’s more about growing together and evolution.
I used to think you were THE one.
Turns out, I was looking for myself all along. And I had to lose you to learn that.
I now look inward and focus on becoming the best version of me.
Turns out I was “the ONE” I was looking for all along.
